Chubby chicks are super sexy!

Recently, one of my very best friends was sharing that she has had a wonderful healing experience. She was on a spiritual journey with a group of people and in one of the exercises her body was being touched by other people. And her mind went so crazy, hijacking her with deep imprinted negative thoughts. She was literally thinking that now these people would find out how ugly and fat her body really is, they would send her home from the retreat!!! This was an actual thought in her head, that was so strong she almost believed it to be true! Thank God, she was conscious enough to witness this thought and share it in the group, re-programming herself that she and her body are worthy of LOVE.

This story was deeply moving me, because I too have some negative thinking around my body. I have been called a chubby chick and men have said to be disgusted by my body. So I have spent a lot of time pretending to be skinny, hiding my body (and yea still covering up the “ugly” parts now!). Even though I have spent a looooottt of time in women’s circles being caressed and loved, doing a lot of self-love exercises and self-pleasuring rituals, I still have negative thinking when it comes to my body.

The weird thing is, we are not even aware of 90% of our thoughts and yet they have a major effect on our well being. As we become more and more conscious, we start to notice all these little moments of self hatred.

What do you tell yourself when you look in the mirror every morning? Too many wrinkles, too much fat, too old, too grey, too bold, too ugly? It is such a challenge for men and women to truly unconditionally love themselves. And since we have been so conditioned to judge our bodies, we might give ourselves some time to reprogram all of that cultural bullshit conditioning.

To all the men out there: you can definitely help us with that! So many men told me I was beautiful and I was unconsciously thinking: “yea right you’re just saying that because you want to have sex with me, or you’re supposed to say that cause I’m your girlfriend.” But the more aware I became of my thoughts, I started wondering, what if men actually mean what they say? No drama stories, no bad intentions. Just them honestly enjoying our bootylicousness. So yea guys, keep on sharing what you love about us. Worship the Goddess in every woman and you will contribute to her awakening with your loving masculine presence (and vise versa for the ladies of course!)

So..it has been such an eye-opener for me to realize that most men aren’t at all looking for that perfect ass or D-Cup tits. It has been mind blowing for me that most men actually fall for feminine radiation, inviting soft energy, gentle eyes.. and yes a lot of them even like a big, soft, juicy ass to go with that! (By the way did you know tantric wisdom teaches us that bootylicious women usually have more sexual energy?)

Anyway… my bodily insecurity usually goes with thoughts like: when I am skinny, I will be successful/happy/worthy/…<fill in the dots>, so I spent most of my time being depressed or pushing myself in the gym.

The other day I was looking at other women doing their awesome Goddess business stuff, and I noticed I was so jealous of their beautiful bodies. I noticed myself thinking:”If I would just lose the weight, I would be able to make video’s for my business too”..

But today I realized I make video’s to inspire people by sharing my authentic self. Right now my authentic self is hanging out in a gorgeous, voluptuous, soft, feminine body.

And yes in the process of loving myself more and more, I am learning to eat healthier and do conscious exercise and I will probably lose weight as a side effect. But being perfectly imperfect will not stop me from showing myself!

So even though my mind is still going crazy judging and comparing myself…

Here’s my delicious shakti dance in deep devotion to the juicy Goddess in every woman! And in honor of all the men serving us with their divine perception.

Amen!

 

(music: Peruquois – “She”)

 

Inspired by my Shakti sisters:

Imaya Sabine Soul Food Passion Fruit
Ronja Sebastian http://ronjavenus.com
Layla Martin http://www.layla-martin.com
Vanessa Florence http://vanessaflorence.com
Guusje Wannet http://juniperlove.com
Chantalle Kamycki http://www.erodanza.nl
Kersti Vervloet http://www.desideratum.nl
Klara Adalena http://www.klaraadalena.com
Peruquois http://www.peruquois.com

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