Krista Josepha Steenbergen

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Outrageous Love Letter to Men

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Beloved,

I’ve always written poems of devotion. My teacher Marc Gafni calls them Outrageous Love Letters. The one below I wrote for my future husband, but I realize they are meant for everyone as they are always for the Divine Love that is present in each and every human being. I hope it inspires you to practice devotion and love. Because only surrender makes life meaningful, only surrender is what ends all suffering. A marriage between a man and a woman is meant to practice this holy devotion. To have a sacred marriage, we must project the qualities of divinity on our spouses and completely devote ourselves to them.

Unfortunately, we forgot how to surrender. Our ego’s are too big. We think we know everything better, we always want to be right. We have all sorts of expectations and needs to be met, before we even consider surrender. “My husband must take out the garbage before I know I can trust him.” Well what if you choose to trust him first, surrender to him, share your divine femininity with him. You think he would not take out the garbage after that? What if you would start giving first?

I invite you to next time when you are in a fight or struggle with your Beloved, instead of trying to be right, just kneel down before your Beloved and say “Okay, so maybe I don’t know. I trust you to know me better than I know myself. Tell me what you see in me”. And notice how every cell in your body might start fighting and resisting this surrender. Stay present and open. If you are humble like this, love and wisdom will start pouring over you in no time and all your expectations WILL be met. It is just completely the other way around than you thought it would be. God can only give you what you want, if you are receptive. So open your hands and heart, and say “I am willing to receive guidance, love and wisdom”.

Amen to that!

My dear Beloved
my Man
my Husband
my Master
my Teacher

Thank you for sharing your wisdom with me.
Thank you for being present with me.
I bow before you in deep devotion.
It is You.
I see God in you.
You…
Unique expression of God.
He is everywhere, how could I not see Him in You.
My heart closed down, so I could only see the bad in you.
Now I remember once again.
You are my teacher, I am your servant.
Be brave enough to allow me to kneel at your feet.
Know your power to do so. Receive my surrender.
Teach me how to surrender, how to let go.
Time and time I get lost and close my heart. Time and time again I return to Love.
I return at your feet, at Jesus’ feet.
In despair, crying out His name.
Whispering.. I don’t know, I don’t know.
I’m sorry I thought I knew, now I know I don’t know.
Time and time I remember.
That surrender is all there is.
The connection between a man and a woman is so magical, so perfect.
In loving each other, we practice our love for God.
He demands her to open.
She seduces him to open.
She is beauty. He is strength.
Beloved, help me to go beyond my arrogance.
You see me better than I see myself.
I trust you. Tell me what you see. Never withhold your truth from me. You are so much wiser than you think. Whatever you feel, express it as an offering to God. Never hold back. I need you.
Don’t accept anything less then radiant light of the Goddess pouring over you.
Pound me open, with your eyes, with your touch, with your smile.
You will need every source of creativity Beloved.
This shall be your initiation.
As you learn how to open up a woman time and time again, you will reconnect to your true masculine power.
It is not about dominance, although it can be dominant.
It has nothing to do with fucking me, although you might be fucking me a lot.
It has nothing to do with aggressiveness, although you might slap me in the face. (And I might enjoy it too!)
It is about your presence. It is about your masculine desire. It is about your lust. It is about penetrating through all the layers of bullshit, with your eyes, your breath and your presence. Going beyond your fear of rejection. Recognizing my manipulative strategies to keep you away, remembering all I truly want is for you to unlock the doors of my heart which is our gateway to heaven.
I need your deep masculine power to know who I am as a woman. You awaken the Goddess in me. You initiate me into true womanhood.
I get lost in the shadow wells of false femininity. Bitching, moaning, complaining, resisting, doubting, dramatizing, manipulating. Feeling lost and insecure half of the time. I need your discipline to guide me to my essence which is pure feminine beauty.
You see me, through all my fears of surrender. When you See me with sacred eyes, the Goddess awakens in me.
And I will do the same for you, my dear. I will see you beyond your fears. This shall be my daily practice and prayer. To be able to See who you truly are, beyond what you are experiencing in the moment. To remind you just by seeing you. Because the act of truly seeing, changes what we look upon.
When you are caught up in your head and busyness, I will offer my feminine touch, my soft sensual words, my laughter, as a reminder for you to return to Love, to come home again Beloved.
We will get lost again and we will return again.
Until we feel safe enough to stay kneeled down before the altar of God, which is life.
Let’s practice devotion together, Beloved.
Let’s DO Love.
Because with every small act of love, we turn on a light and reverse the curse of suffering.
In gratefulness I am..
Your Holy Beloved
Your Goddess
Your Servant
Your Whore
Your Wife,
My name is Krista.

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  1. Dubbele gevoelens..kan dit, ben ik waardig genoeg..ja ik ben waardig genoeg…kunnen we dit samen…ja dat kunnen wij samen…we zijn op weg!

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