Let’s talk about holy broken sex.
Yes.. my love.
I want to talk to you about sex.
The big topic that is much avoided, much exploited, much enjoyed.
There is so much pain and confusion in this society around sex.
Hardly anyone has been deeply initiated into sexuality
nobody was taught how to be with our sex
our mothers were just as confused as our grandmothers
our fathers were just as confused as our grandfathers
In ancient society people were initiated in their sexuality
they knew their holy connection to their own life force energy and how to nurture it
unfortunately this sacred wisdom has been lost
although it is still here, hidden in the temples, gone underground.
Waiting to reveal herself when the world is ready.
And the ancient wisdom is also kept safe in the field of infinite wisdom
In the field of our ancestors, spirit helpers, the Universe.
We can tap into this wisdom and remember who we are as innocent sexual beings.
When we open up to receive the visions, the teachings, the wisdom
SHE will come to us
and initiate us through our third eye, through the wisdom of our bodies.
You can invite the Goddesses to teach you in your dreams
in your visions
in your body
You can ask Goddess Isis or Shakti or Aphrodite or Mary Magdalene or whomever you resonate with right now
to initiate you, to heal you from within.
You don’t need anybody or any cool techniques, she can show you.. inside yourself.. how to heal yourself.
We need this healing because our bodies are traumatized by all the sexual abuse they have endured.
Maybe actual abuse in this lifetime.
Maybe us abusing ourselves by not listening to our hearts desires and dissociating from our feelings.
Maybe abuse we experienced in past lives.
Maybe abuse that has been passed on for generations, mother to mother, womb to womb to sons and daughters.
We don’t have to wonder no more, why we feel abused.
Abuse is in our DNA. Our society is drenched in sexual confusion.
Sex was kept a prisoner by religion.
Sex was used as a prisoner to rebel against religion, covered up by so called sexual liberation.
And now she wants to be seen in her true nature. Seen and held and healed.
If you are anything like me, you can feel it in your body and your heart too
wondering why you’re carrying this holy pain around
And yes we can release and let go
but only by going through the darkness and embracing all that we encounter.
This is part of our initiation
knowing what sacred sex is not
knowing the deepest pain of the Goddess herself.
Being willing to sit with her as she screams and cries and moans
to listen to the pain of the Goddess
and then embody that
and then release and heal Her in you, as you and through you.
This is the work of the ‘lightworkers’
this is the work of the tempelpriests and priestesses
this is the work of the sons and daughters of Mary Magdalene
It is invisable work.
Nobody is actually paying us to do this
hardly anybody is recognizing that we are doing this.
so we must be very clear about who we are
and why we came here.
And why we are so empathic to all of this pain in the world
so willing to feel it all
to heal it all.
Without getting lost ourselves in the darkness,
we travel back and forth to the underworld.
To pick up more and more broken pieces of our soul.
To bring with us other people through the gateway of awakening
To bring light where there is darkness
to bring joy where there is pain.
I myself have been carrying this holy pain inside my womb from the day I was born. It was a gift from my ancestors. It has been like a dark friend, waiting for me to be ready to meet her in her true beauty. So I can set her free. For myself, for my sisters, for my family, for my ancestors, for the world.
This is not my first rodeo. I am very well aware of why I am here. I am not broken, yet I am a healer.
So…remember who you are
and know that any pain you are feeling
is part of your initiation
to share your gift
to bring healing to this broken world
by healing yourself
deeper and deeper.
Just keep swimming, love.